contempt

i find desperate girls disgusting.

yesterday was supposed to be a happy day. it was not just any other day, it was ellien's 21st. it may be yet another birthday, or just an ordinary day for others, but it is her turning 21, which is once in a lifetime.

alas, it was not meant to be, thanks to one particular desperate girl. so much for being her good friend of 8 years.

girls who are so desperate to get a boyfriend, so much so that you'd make use of your friends just to create chances for you and the guy, please wake up. you don't deserve our friendship at all. i have but contempt for you.

i felt so 心疼 for ellien though.

recent days at school have been tumultuous, what with suspicions abound. and yesterday was the climax, because of a selfish act by the desperate girl. suddenly, i found her so disgusting. her words, her actions. and her single act had just confirmed my worst suspicion - that she only befriended me to get close to chao. to think she had always been extra nice to me; it was all part of her getting-myself-a-boyfriend scheme.

what kind of a person is this? downright scheming and full of shit. disgusting, may i add.

to look on the bright side of things, i've at least made true friends through it all. and learnt more about them.. like how strong ell is. i admire her, really.

well well, on a lighter note, i've struck perming off my list. HAHAHA. no maggie mee perm for me please! and now that i've finally decided what to do with my hair, it's time to fix an appointment already.