price of not speaking up

i hate having to turn people down, but when i have to, i stand firm.


and today i paid the price of not speaking my mind right from the start. i thought i could put up with the thought of it; i tried convincing myself to. but it was no use - in the back of my mind, i had already decided that this wasn't for me. i should have just gone ahead with my instincts right from the start. rarrghh.


at least, it's never too late to wake up from the self-psychoing and to listen to your heart.


june used to be my happiest month. but now it's the busy - and broke - month. michelle's, peishan's and jinmison's birthday celebrations are held this weekend. meihong's soon, all 4 of whom were my og16 mates. jj really shouldn't group people according to birthdates.